in the middle of the night

做每件事情前
我会先考虑你的感受
因为我不舍得你难过


because of him, i've changed
no, probably i should say im changing myself
to b a better me
im not just changing for him
but also change for myself
to b a better girl

在感情路上

跌跌撞撞了那么久

还是那么天真 那么傻
当你喜欢上了，就不管曾经多么的受伤
还是会盅个头下去

两个人在一起
好像就是把两个不同的背景，不同的回忆，不同的故事的世界
却因为爱两个连在一起
感情需要时间一点一点漫漫的把两个世界放在一起
有些人分开了
一个世界离开了另一个世界
留在原地的，只能看着那些曾经一起因为爱而改变的点滴

tis r my several thought of the year
sekali posted all together randomly...hohoho

April

Hi, April...i wish u will b a wonderful month
because i needa submit my final year project the end of the month
i cant imagine how happy i will be on next month
[coz i should have submitted by end of tis month]

recently, i cant do my work at home
especially when u r not working
all i wan is to spend time wit u
i like u bein around me even we do nothing
the oni time i can do my work is when u r working
den oni i can concentrate on my work
[not reli concentrate actually, see im blogging xD]

my faith to God seems weaken
but i know God never give up on me
i reli need God to strengthen me
GOD!! TT

tis fri gt a presentation
singing again o.O OMG!!!
gt a job offer RM12/hour but i hv no time for it
[Yi lou, i listen to u TT]

thank u for the surprise at the beach and ytd night recording
how sweeeeeet ^^ u always cheer me up!
sorry tat my word might just hurt others,
but i hv to express my happiness here! right now! to tell the world
"im glad to hv u"!

FML

seriously, i wanna shout out "F*CK MY LIFE*
wats wrong oooooo
love life sooooo complicated
body having some pain at tis moment
assignments due date comin soon
less than a month need to submit my FYP
##%@*#(%&#*&%#(*%_!%!_*

HOW?!

Relationship

after few days of consideration
i hv decided that not getting into a new relationship until i graduate
unless u willing to wait...
getting into relationship is not only about u LOVING someone
relationship needed communication and understand each other
if u r not mature enuf, don fall into relationship
realtionship is not a game tat u can sign up n quit just lik tat
every relationship give u a memory
v learn frm each other, understand human being
v gt hurt, n v gt up
im tired of it... =)
jz wanna b peace...
look at couples....fight...lovin each other...and so on
pointless dramas.....hahaha....

we all are one and only...
v dont belong to anyone
i am myself
i hv my own frens, family, bro n sis...
tat will nvr b urs
i don wan people interrupt wat IN me n who i AM
i love GOD will nvr chg....

tis is not an emo post....jz a random post regarding my recent feeling

Dating

thing goes so complicated...

i hv no idea wat i really wan...

past 2 days working at Pavilion Caring,

nt reli happy working thr,

is reli reli BORING!

i guess im not going to work as part time promoter anymore

even the salary is 'quite' Good,

but, the job doest worth the salary,

i will prefer to spend my time nicely

and...2days thr, i learned something

do not easily trust people

v duno wat others think,

even without advantage/benefit,

they will just wan to 'harm' u...

tis is 'society'

End the stupid story thr

i hv a date today,

God bless today will be a nice day and memorable day for us

*HOT AIR BALLOON*

Things could just happen

is mid March

Next week is mid sem break

and i hvt do my FYP [sh*t]

a lot of assignments i need to finish during this break

but, wat im looking forward is Langkawi!!!

haha..going Langkawi again~

but.....thr is 'complication' happens

tat makes me dunno how im going to face it

i know im making everyone suffering

but, i hv no idea wat should i do....

i jz don wan any changes....

^^ stay strong and stay cool

to my dear Azalia who having someting even more complicate

i wish she can move on too!

to Kenny, sakit hah...i cant help much, pray for u, so tat u can recover soon

is reli suffer when u cant sleep for 2days rite?

to Cheetah [who wil nt read tis blog]

I REALLY HATE THE WAY U TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW

but i understand u for being so childish

to myself, all the best

March

March - tis month will b much better than last month

1 month ago, i was in a heart broken situation
1 month later, i was in a complicated relationship status

so much story wanna tell
yet, duno where to start
but the ending is predictable...
none of them i will choose..

wat a lucky girl
tat so much ppl sayang...=)
appreciate everything God given to me...
i know im not the best, but i tried my best to b who i am
i am stronger than ytd.

好男人

今天是全年最好的一天
四年一次的2月29
虽然没什么特别
可是，我却经历了很难忘的一天

凌晨3点，突然发烧
很辛苦，很不舒服
发冷，喉咙很痛
心想“我终于生病了”

早上的可没有去
中午，这个男的在我去学校
因为他也很累，没有去做工

这个男的
会缝手工给我
会煲粥给我吃
会特地载我
somehow he reminds me of IC
maybe bcoz they stay at the same house
they r best fren
but....i can feel secure and comfortable when im with him
i duno y, but i trust him...
i know he might not be as good as v think...
but...he is nt as bad as they said i think...

maybe they both are almost the same
reli reli good to me
i feel like same thing will repeat again...
i hate tis feeling
i tried not to mention IC in front of him
but, the way they talk the way they act is the same!

grrrrr......wish i can find someone out of tis gang pls...
but he is reli reli nice guy....
might nt b tgt, but, can b reli close fren
maybe like me n gemini used to be?

I love my life

previously, i wast so active on blog
coz i finally broke up with I.C.
was having a Bad period of time
but, now i get through tis oledi
actually was't so bad...
shouldt b sad bcoz of tis idiot

some good news are
after broke up a lot of people cares about me
[except my family]
n my admires are....LOL...xD
make me so damn happy
i wast lonely anymore
frenssss r around....

created so much NEWS recently
reli happy....n hang out with frenssss almost everyday~
hahaha....is so much fun...
i guess i wouldt hv tis much fun if im stil with I.C.
LOL....

thank u for everything God
i know i dint spend much time wit u recently
but, u always in my heart...
sorry for wat i've done....
I SWEAR THR WIL B AN END

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Wonderful Valentines

Thank God, i celebrated Valentines 2012

even though my bf jz broke up wit me 2 weeks b4 valentines
but, i hv frens who celebrated with me tis yr
which make tis yr valentine so meaningful...

first of all
is the roses i received frm a fren first time meeting him
v went for steak n he bought me roses....
hahaha...tats my first valentine gift of the yr
[even though he don mean to buy me as valentines gift]
LOL

secondly
i've made some stars to ppl i care n as present as well
1- Loh, his bday is on 16Feb, so i made 100 stars for him as valentines+bday present
2- Abby, my best fren~ to appreciate tis fren
3- Cheetah, my ex, someone who reli closed to me n know me well
4- Azalia, my best fren in coll, best classmate, to appreciate how much she cared bout me
5- Kenny, my BFF!! he is the most special fren i ever had...
6- Fer, thank u for accompany me all tis while...

thirdly
is the jelly i made, peach n lychee flavors...
oni Banker frens n cheetah azalia tried it...lol
coz kind of failed product...hahaha

den,
is my first cooking for a fren
the lucky guy -KENNY YONG-
rice, sausage, vege n egg
very simple cook, which done within one hour
so far, the comments are positive
hahahaha....
i guess i pass my cooking skill....hehehe

tat's all how i celebrated my valentines 2012
best ever....even without a lover...
i think, with a lover u wil nvr enjoy tis much
coz u don expect anything n u can enjoy to max

thanks for the paper rose~Yi lou^^ hehehe...

ps: to yin, tis yr no present sorry a...wil ganti balik on ur bday gift, i promise..
hehehehe....
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