Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Hi, Blog

May coming to the end...
my degree gonna finish soon...
next week is my exam....
tis friday last assignment submission
recently, i cry easily...
one of the reason bcoz im leavin university
everything i used to hv in the past 4yrs
coming to END
my frens, wat i used to do, whr i used to go
everything gonna hv a big changes soon...
also my love life,
it is so different with others
i hv to admit im hot temper, get angry easily
but, now, i HAVE to control everything
i hv to hide my feelings from him

so....life is changing...
may God bless me and lead me on HIS way...

Saturday, May 5, 2012

新的想法

原来每个人都是-个体

我们有属于自己的空间,自己的时间,自己的思想
过去,我总是想要掌控一个人的全部
我想要拥有,我觉得我自己懂得如何掌握

原来都不是,
不同的人有不同的思想

现在我在学习相信
相信一个人,让自己多一份安全感,多一点信心
这功课不容易,10年来都习惯这样的想法
现在努力学习改变
很希望这次的改变可以让这段感情变得更坚固一些

我真的很怕很怕失去
我要如何做个坚强的女生?

Friday, April 27, 2012

这样的一个人

我从没想过你会是这样一个人
原来我说的每样事情
你有去注意有在听
i care because u care
说不出的开心和惊喜

有时候我的举止
反映了你是怎样对我
你给到我安全感
我就可以给你自由
因为你的冷漠
所以我害怕

可能我很笨
打算再一次相信一个人了
因为你不一样

一切竟在不言中

很多的话,放在心里
慢慢就忘了
日记也不知道怎么写下去
小白是个怎样的人
有一个怎样的人生
我也不知道了

是时候套上新的面具
继续做人了

Monday, April 23, 2012

*2012* Who would knows

2012
Today, 23.4.2012
many things could happen
who would knows i will fall so deep in love with a guy
who would knows he will dumped me with tat reason
who would knows im getting in a complicated relationship right after i broke up
who would knows i fall sick so badly which never happen to me
[usually i will fall sick once a year and it will recover within few days not weeks]
who would knows final year could be so tough yet memorable
[when rushing for fyp *stress* yet fighting hard with classmates *memorable*]
who would knows my foot get fungal infections
who would knows my foot did not recover for almost 1month and getting serious
[which i duno wat infection is tat]
who would knows anything could just happen....
who knows....

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Degree Life

having tis thought for few days
but no time for it...
so basically...i miss uni life
been joined APIIT UCTI for almost 4years
from the first year - foundation
used to be three of us , me wan yin n jen
i met a lot of new friends in foundation
especially my BEST FREN Kenny
oso a lot of interesting frens from Group 1 and Group 2
n i've met Him Cheetah during foundation as well

during foundation i only enter the class talk to wan yin play with frens and don even know wat lecturer said
i duno wat is assignments i duno wat is tutorial
when lecturer asked us to do sumtin, always Jen who tell us wat to do
i hv to admit my English is super BAD
so much 'complicated' story happen
END of foundation life

Continue with LEVEL 1
i chosen Media Informatics n i duno whether it is good onot
i leave it to God to guide me all the way
during Level 1,
we were 1 gang with Phoebe Sarah n Sherley
i feel so lost at the beginning becoz im no longer with my best fren
but, i learn a lot from here...
v go shisha with this crazy gang n some random fren from uni
is quite fun n memorable

Continue with LEVEL 2
tis is where azalia come in
i nvr thought i will met someone lik her
since she joined, me azalia n cheetah become a group which is crazy n fun all the time
i reli reli love LEVEL 2 life sooo sooo much
v joined a lot of competition bcoz of Azalia [she is so active]
without her, me n cheetah's dream will nvr achieve
also Shozab n Afey the foreigner frens which im proud of
LEVEL 2 is just prefect for me!!!
[even tho here the end of some love story]

Continue with Level 3
im so afraid of grad...
but im enuf wit study n exams n assignmentss
level 3 is stress bcoz of FYP
everyone working hard for it
same to me...>,<

im gonna miss those time we said:
"where to have lunch later?"
"cafeteria? don wan la~"
"lunch box?too far to walk thr la"
"deli? yuk~ the food suck"
"Aliah? okok, many people leh"
"shit, v hv x hr break on x day"
"hows ur assignment?"
"xxx said class cancel on x day! YEAY"
 after June, all those words will nvr repeat...
i miss my uni, my fren, my life....

Friday, April 13, 2012

Post - Grad

As im goin to graduate
plenty of works i need to complete in order to grad
so, this is y FYP comes in
people started it since last year
in my case
i just met my adviser few hours ago
n he told me i just have to change my literature review
which is the hardest part for me
OMG! submission date is 25.4.12
i hv another 12 more days ni....
everything he said just brin me down
(even he helped me a lot to understand wat im doing right now)
is not about time,
but about the topic i have chosen brin me to hell

no more entertainment no more life no more social
gonna F*ck my FYP nicely now.....
FYP, i love u and F*ck u!!!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

in the middle of the night

做每件事情前
我会先考虑你的感受
因为我不舍得你难过


because of him, i've changed
no, probably i should say im changing myself
to b a better me
im not just changing for him
but also change for myself
to b a better girl

在感情路上
跌跌撞撞了那么久
还是那么天真 那么傻
当你喜欢上了,就不管曾经多么的受伤
还是会盅个头下去

两个人在一起
好像就是把两个不同的背景,不同的回忆,不同的故事的世界
却因为爱两个连在一起
感情需要时间一点一点漫漫的把两个世界放在一起
有些人分开了
一个世界离开了另一个世界
留在原地的,只能看着那些曾经一起因为爱而改变的点滴

tis r my several thought of the year
sekali posted all together randomly...hohoho

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

April

Hi, April...i wish u will b a wonderful month
because i needa submit my final year project the end of the month
i cant imagine how happy i will be on next month
[coz i should have submitted by end of tis month]

recently, i cant do my work at home
especially when u r not working
all i wan is to spend time wit u
i like u bein around me even we do nothing
the oni time i can do my work is when u r working
den oni i can concentrate on my work
[not reli concentrate actually, see im blogging xD]

my faith to God seems weaken
but i know God never give up on me
i reli need God to strengthen me
GOD!! TT

tis fri gt a presentation
singing again o.O OMG!!!
gt a job offer RM12/hour but i hv no time for it
[Yi lou, i listen to u TT]

thank u for the surprise at the beach and ytd night recording
how sweeeeeet ^^ u always cheer me up!
sorry tat my word might just hurt others,
but i hv to express my happiness here! right now! to tell the world
"im glad to hv u"!

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

FML

seriously, i wanna shout out "F*CK MY LIFE*
wats wrong oooooo
love life sooooo complicated
body having some pain at tis moment
assignments due date comin soon
less than a month need to submit my FYP
##%@*#(%&#*&%#(*%_!%!_*

HOW?!

♠Farm♠ From God