struggling whether i should write it out or not
i think i cant control my emotion anymore
i wish i can cry out so i can feel better
but, the pain in my heart don let me cry
i wish i can shout out my pain
but another side of me telling me
"nvm, even u angry u cant change anything"
actually no one's fault
it suppose to be like tis
is jz im holding a high expectation
i tot it works n i planned
but ends up it doest work
all turned into dust
im so DOWN
i should hv know when i do not receive sms frm him
i stil give myself hundred reasons hoping he come back early
when i get up from my bed n catch my phone
another side of me still telling me
"don worry he on the way bac n u get to see him to9"
when i check fb his msg "im coming back"
i feel so happy n i say "ya!he reli coming back, don worry la^^"
when i read til the end, "Will reach home at 12"
my heart falls from KLCC n i can hear the crash sound in my heart
i reli reli dulan......i don wan talk to him anymore im so angry
i tel myself to9 not going to talk to him n wont choi him tomoro
but actually,i miss him so damn much
n i know is not his fault to come back late
he memang planned to come back late
is jz last nite he tot he maybe can come back earlier
n i expect to see him to9, tat's y im so disappointed
heart still pain....i try not to let him know im sad
coz xiao bai need to b mature, not so childish
i know wat is right wat is wron
so all these emotion jz let it pass
den i will b better
now i jz feel a BIG BIG HAIHZ! n tears finally fall unconsciously
xiaobai b strong! u r not tat weak!
*second post shows im nt happy wit Gemini, i think is my problem*
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